Popular Hollywood screenwriter Heidi Ferrer took her own life months after she indicated on her blog that she will commit suicide if her Covid-19 situation doesn’t get better.
Ferrer contracted Coronavirus in April last year, experiencing severe pains in her feet and ankles, fatigue and flu-like symptoms.
By June 2020, Ferrer’s symptoms had escalated and she was bedridden in excruciating pain and neurological tremors.
The mother of one detailed her harrowing experience with Coronavirus in devastating posts on her blog in September.
She told her husband Nick Guthe that she didn’t want to live with the pain and suffering if her condition didn’t get better.
“The monster is real and it came for me. Recovering from Covid-19 has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been through a lot.
“In my darkest moments, I told my husband that if I didn’t get better, I did not want to live like this. I wasn’t suicidal, I just couldn’t see any quality of life long term and there was no end in sight.
“One of the cruellest things Covid did to me was to take away my ability to have dreams. I don’t mean dreams in my sleep, I mean I completely stopped dreaming about my future because I couldn’t picture it. It was a wall.
“Yes, everyone had lost our trips, our events, our free lives during the shutdown, but I had lost all of that and also became suddenly crippled with scary neurological programs,” Ferrer wrote in part.
Though she appeared to have given up on life on her post, the Hollywood screenwriter nonetheless encouraged other people suffering from Covid-19 never to give up.
“I believe this in my bones: If you are suffering from this monster, you will eventually make it out, we will heal. Slowly, almost inexorably, sometimes glacially … we are recovering. It’s just that no one knows for sure how long it might take, maybe six months, maybe a year,” Ferrer wrote.
Ferrer ultimately gave up the fight and died by suicide after the long and painful battle with Covid-19 which left her bedridden for a number of months.
Her condition deteriorated rapidly in the last few months forcing her to end the pain and suffering on her own.
Her family revealed to Variety that the 50-year-old screenwriter took her life at her home in Los Angeles last month.
Her husband Guthe revealed news of her death on social media following the 13-month battle, at the time he didn’t disclose cause of her death.